My Dearest Angels, What's There to Fear?

I made an error in my decision due to desperation and too blinded with ambition and money.  However, God is real, my little darlings, He awakened my senses and saved me.  Nonetheless, it's not yet my happy ending.  I needed to pass the eye of the needle to get what I truly want.  Again, there were tears almost coming out from eyes.  Then, I looked up the sky and saw your silhouettes.  I whispered, 'wait a little more for I'll have you'.

Of course, your closest family member whom you'll meet someday, will be your nemesis.  I am discouraged and judged with my decision.  Angels, they should be grateful for their blessings and not look down on people.  Someday we'll sing together under the moonlight and have picnic under the sunlight.  You'll be the envy of all, and they'll no longer look down at me but give me a standing ovation of how you become.

Today is temporary.  I am not afraid.  I don't have to think too much.  Everything will be alright with God's grace.  My dearest angels, what's there to fear?

One day, I'l tell you the story of my journey and quest.  My lessons will be your warnings and I am the most wonderful treasure you'll keep.  I will write a lot and I'll be your favorite writer.  I will paint your portrait.  I am the best teacher you ever have.  

My angels, I miss the people I dearly love and specially you know who...  God is preparing him my angels, worry not.  Soon, he'll be reunited with us and he'll find his way to me again... and finally to you too...  I saw the old nasty places we have been yesterday... My angels, we're not perfect for we made mistakes and that was the price of love.  I don't seek forgiveness for what I felt but I apologized to God for all my mistakes.

My dearest angels, I am a failure.  Nevertheless, failing is the step I needed to take so that I can have you for real and also to make me stronger as preparation till we  meet someday.  My precious, you won't be perfect but I'll tame  you with the goodness of my heart and mold you with God's hands.  We'll be happy with you know who... he's apart only this time but he's really really close in our hearts.  I lose again.   Yet, everything will come to order in Jesus' and Mama Mary's names.  My dearest angels, I keep in seeing you in my dreams... No matter how they scare me, God is with us... See you soon.  What's there to fear when everything is possible with the Almighty.

Trust me, my angels.  One day, I'll you this story, my story.