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God Won't Fail Me

God will help me.  I always pray to defeat the beast/s.  The prophets before me had foes that were defeated by God.  I will triumph and He gave endless chances.

Today is Temporary

Today is temporary
Suffering won't last long
My tears today
 Tomorrow will dry

Replaced with a smile

Today is temporary
My heart will be filled
God prepared the best
There's nothing to worry
For today is temporary

The future is not mine to see

Whatever happens let it be

Lessons learned from errors

Redemption from thy Father

After all, today is temporary

My Dearest Angels, What's There to Fear?

I made an error in my decision due to desperation and too blinded with ambition and money.  However, God is real, my little darlings, He awakened my senses and saved me.  Nonetheless, it's not yet my happy ending.  I needed to pass the eye of the needle to get what I truly want.  Again, there were tears almost coming out from eyes.  Then, I looked up the sky and saw your silhouettes.  I whispered, 'wait a little more for I'll have you'.

Of course, your closest family member whom you'll meet someday, will be your nemesis.  I am discouraged and judged with my decision.  Angels, they should be grateful for their blessings and not look down on people.  Someday we'll sing together under the moonlight and have picnic under the sunlight.  You'll be the envy of all, and they'll no longer look down at me but give me a standing ovation of how you become.

Today is temporary.  I am not afraid.  I don't have to think too much.  Everything will be alright with God's grace.  My dearest angels, what's there to fear?

One day, I'l tell you the story of my journey and quest.  My lessons will be your warnings and I am the most wonderful treasure you'll keep.  I will write a lot and I'll be your favorite writer.  I will paint your portrait.  I am the best teacher you ever have.  

My angels, I miss the people I dearly love and specially you know who...  God is preparing him my angels, worry not.  Soon, he'll be reunited with us and he'll find his way to me again... and finally to you too...  I saw the old nasty places we have been yesterday... My angels, we're not perfect for we made mistakes and that was the price of love.  I don't seek forgiveness for what I felt but I apologized to God for all my mistakes.

My dearest angels, I am a failure.  Nevertheless, failing is the step I needed to take so that I can have you for real and also to make me stronger as preparation till we  meet someday.  My precious, you won't be perfect but I'll tame  you with the goodness of my heart and mold you with God's hands.  We'll be happy with you know who... he's apart only this time but he's really really close in our hearts.  I lose again.   Yet, everything will come to order in Jesus' and Mama Mary's names.  My dearest angels, I keep in seeing you in my dreams... No matter how they scare me, God is with us... See you soon.  What's there to fear when everything is possible with the Almighty.

Trust me, my angels.  One day, I'll you this story, my story. 

Creamy Split

How to surpass depression and survive from rejection? Well, a yummy dessert can aid my all shattered heart.

Oh, My Baby G!

 

 I am a fan of black and white films, the old classics.  I watched all Shirley Temple movies and a lot more.  So, I couldn't help wishing to have a porcelain doll (like in the Little Princess movie) that only rich kids could afford.  I was so offended with what the landlady said yesterday and couldn't help feeling sad for my situation.  So, even it was unplanned to go out, I accompanied my friend for a Saturday stroll.

Then, there she was, the dream and love of the little girl in me. I saw it in an old shop and the price was reasonable. Not included in the budget, but I couldn't help it. The auntie in the shop was so kind, she even told her boss to give me free earrings. Haha. My convincing power and thick skin worked again, just like old times. My friend playfully suggested to name my new pretty doll. I said, Geneve, same as my pretty student's name. Or Geneva, same as my student's character in his story. Then, my friend suggested we call her Genie because a genie makes wishes come true. Oh my baby Genie, you know the desires of my heart... make my wishes come true! One day, you'll have a true playmate but one at the time.  

 A budget and cheap shopping for hurt and stress relief!!! I bought stuff for my sis and I. A week's budget for meal wasted!!!! But, I did this to take a break from my painful reality. Btw, baby G, kiss papa G... nyt-nyt!!! The day will come he'll find me in his heart.... Good night. XOXO....

OMG, BB GGG!!!!

Soon is Near

What can I say I am an ordinary stranger, I can't change and disobey the rules...

I pray with all my heart and after all the failures, I am already used to fear.

What will I say??? I have no phone.  I only hitch for internet connection.  I will not give up on trying...

Lazy Sunday

My sister and friend are lazy to go out for lunch.  So, we ordered Mac...

Painkillers for My Thoughts...

Those were days that are gone but I can never take out from my head.  The fever is getting into the cells of my brain, driving me nuts every single day.  Am I hallucinating again? Will I cease not to remember something I can't forget?  Will you hear me again? I am awfully down but I must not give up and lost hope.  So bad, I am almost there...

Do you despise me? Or disregard the friend you found in me?  You know I am so willing to jump off the fence in between us. However, it is up to you... the decision is yours...

Can you stop me from missing you?  There's never a day inside my prison cell of boredom I wish to see you not only in my imagination.  I wish you are in front of me so that I can look into your eyes and smell your manly aroma.  I will keep on missing those times you make me feel different but comfortable in your company.  You brought to me a package of joy with pain and wonderful memories. Hopefully those times won't end but more to come.

Ouch.  Here it goes again.... those memories lingering in every fiber of me.  Prescribe me the painkillers that will cure the longings in me.  Prove to me those are not only real in my thoughts...

I hope you can hear me... but I don't know if I have the face to see you once more... Or do you still want to see me?

MY PHONE IS DEAD

I am disappointed with the turn of events.  After all the crying time, I kneeled and prayed with confidence.  If I will lose hope now and keep looking back with the series of unfortunate events, I can't do anything. Hence, my only choice is to embrace the truth.  

I wanted to dial the phone or wait for your call.  Then, when I looked at my phone,  it showed 'no service'.
Lucky, I have kind neighbors whose wifi's passwords were disabled.  My friend also let me use her internet.  My old phone has problem with wifi connection.   Thanks to my mama, she left the phone I gave her. At least I have something to use for my online entertainment.

Poor thing :( I mourned for my phone for it is totally useless.  It is so dead.  I have money but I am saving it for upcoming expenses.

Lord, melt those hearts made of steels and whom abided by the rues.  Dear Lord, lend them your considerate and kind heart.  Send Your Holy Spirit to enlighten their hearts and minds.  If it is your will, let it be done! 

RIP to my phone.  Don't worry you'll be resurrected.