The Riverdale and Sweet Valley Days

I knew them so well, as if I am their friend and I lived in their world.  The mixture of comedy and drama filled the pages, which were part of my high school days.  Those were the gangs who made me cry and laugh, a world described in words that became true in my head.

The fun of the gang in Riverdale High can still make me chuckle.  The twins of Sweet Valley will never fade in my memory.

All of them, hope not only a dream.  If only the world is not bias and discriminating, and doesn't follow rules and standards.  If there are no priorities, and true talents and the heart to serve really matter.  It is always about favoritism... Sometimes those who have it, can't even appreciate how lucky they are...

Yeah, those characters are not alive.  Welcome to my reality!  How can I fight when I am not in control?  The harsh words and unfair decision...

I LIFT EVERYTHING TO GOD.  My tears can't get my money and allow me to show them what I got.

Those were the days...

The Devil Within

Isn't it ridiculous how patterns form something only your imaginative eyes can perceive?

What do you see? Two hearts reflecting each other.  Look closely and discover two fox' eyes.  Wait a minute!  Is it a mustache or those are fangs?  Hey, the scariest part is the horns on the heart.

I have so many strange dreams.  Those are not visions from God but the fruits of my sinful desires.  I surrender all those troubling thoughts.  How will I take away something that already resides in me?  Thus, it is a combat within, saving my soul from hell.

I only see what I want to see.  But, whoever you are, if there are unacceptable words you said, all of those are of no proofs and totally injustice.  If you were angry at me, condemn the circumstances for I am just another victim.  My apologies for your pains because I endure more.

Do you triumph in my defeat?  How long will you reign?  My life is bitter and sour now, I am still trying to survive.  What will happen to you?  I don't know.  You'll find it out yourself.  Will it be worst? I don't know, the future is not mine to see. 

Be warned, the wrongful wishes you have for others might backfire on you ten times or more.  Don't let the devil dominates us all. 

Worthless Paper

A hope nothing but a trash
A signature brings temporary joy on documents meant to be scratched
The most awaited miracle turned to be a grief
Have a I suffered enough?
I want to use and improve my skills
I am blessed with many gifts but with no luck
My good head is no significant
Why can't I be a slut who needs not to work and feed on men's profit?
Why can't I be whore who earns money in pleasure!??
I am so close to it
Almost there and why it should be taken?
I qualified and proved myself worthy
Why the world filled with rules of stubborn men?
The excitements dissolve into tears
Do I have reasons to smile?

I miss myself and the usual routines...
I am always enthusiastic with work
Oftentimes, pretending I am healthy and never get sick
I miss preparing my attire in the evenings
I miss hearing my laughter and how grateful others were...

I always have the chances...
Take away your curse and evil desires
Forgive me and I forgive you...

How many times will I lose?